When I mix my drinks I go on self-destruct mode. I haven’t hurt myself yet but I worry one day I will so I’m rethinking my drinking habits but is it normal to feel so destructive through just alcohol?
Alcohol affects people in different ways. You might know people who become quite emotional when drunk, or others who just want to fall asleep. It sounds like when you drink too much then alcohol makes you more self-destructive.
It’s not necessarily about mixing alcoholic drinks, it’s more to do with the amount that you’ve drank. For example, three pints of ordinary lager has the same amount of alcohol as three double measures of spirits, but it is much easier to knock back three doubles than three pints. And, if you’re pouring your own spirits you’re not likely to be sticking to pub measures. This means getting drunk can happen quite quickly leading to the self-destructive behaviour you worry about.
Alcohol is known as a disinhibitor which means you will maybe do things or say things that you wouldn’t normally do due to the fact that it effects your judgement and your ability to decide between right wrong. Longer term heavy drinking can cause changes in mood and brain function also.
For some people, self destructive behaviour leads to the involvement of the police, for others it can be deliberate self-harm. So it sounds like for you it is ‘normal’ to feel self destructive with alcohol, which is why it sounds like a really good idea to try to rethink your drinking habits.
Recognising that there is a link between alcohol and self-destructive behaviour is a great first step and rethinking your drinking habits is a positive move. Sticking to the unit system is a good way of helping yourself to reduce your drinking and stick to safe measures.
The safe limits that are suggested is 21 units per week for a male over the age of 18, but no more than 3-4 units daily and 14 units a week for a female over 18 but no more than 2-3 units daily. For under 18’s there is no safe recommended amount.